There are times in life when nothing seems to matter. Or maybe it is just me and that nothing matters for me now, at least in this present moment. The world appears to be a resort where I feel disconnected from everyone and everything. I don’t know if it’s the effect of increased dosage of…
Collapse and crumble.
The past few months I have crumbled, broken, fallen, stumbled, and almost collapsed. All a result of my decisions – decisions I took based on my knowledge, and best of my intentions. I cannot imagine the damage I caused around me to those who love me but I do know that I did try not…
Random thought…
What if we are like the climbing plants, holding on so tightly to the one who is not good for us, just so that we can reach the sky? And when it is time to break free, it is not easy because we have, somehow, attached ourselves so badly that unless we are willing to…
Me, moon, and you…
There are some moments in life that no matter how much we want them to stay, they don’t… no matter how hard we try to capture them, to preserve them, we can’t… like tonight’s beautiful moon and the perfect breeze… no matter how hard i try, i can not even take a click… or record…
Ab himmat nahin…
Ab tou kuch kehnay ko bhi dil nahin karta…Kahein tou bhi kia… Kahein bhi tou kis se?Aur kahein bhi tou kiyun?Suna tha apnon ko kehnay ki zarurat nahin aur gaeron se kehnay ka faida nahin… lekin idhar tou ab zindagi hee ajeeb hai… ab tou apnay bhi apnay nahin… koi durr hai tou koi sath…
Just accepting…
“Don’t let the pain caused by one, keep you from trusting another.” “Don’t let the fear of striking you out, keep you from playing the game.” “Don’t let failure define who you are.” “Don’t let the climb keep you from reaching the top.” So many more quotes, that basically tell you to keep going, moving…
To live or to die?
We all want to live, and why not? Life is beautiful, like flowers and rainbows, singing birds and joyous rains. But somehow, despite it all, I feel like death would be easy. The questions I have to answer to the innocent souls, the justifications I have to give to protect their little mind, their little…
Into the unknown.
A week of last minute plans.A week of difficult decisions.A week of trying to balance.A week of keeping myself together.A week of giving my best? A week comes to an end with me making decisions that may be I wouldn’t if I was weak or emotional or maybe as some may say if I was…
I miss you every day.
I sit here in silence, watching the waves… I hear kids play, enjoying their day… and no matter what I do, every second of every day, I can not stop thinking of the words that you said… and all I can say is that… I could write a line, or a few words…Perhaps a paragraph…
Silencing a painful storm…
And they don’t even know, that sometimes they are the hope I need, to gain the strength to go through the pain… they don’t even know how they are my blessing that helps me remind myself how grateful I am… and they don’t even know that how their mum is breaking apart, trying to hold…
Inexplainable…
what should I write? where should I start? with something that feels so heavy in my heart. all i can do is cry inside or on prayer mat, while I try to fake smiles and laughs, sometimes real but for a different reason than anyone can imagine. They all think i’m smiling and laughing on…
How I long….
How I long for this darkness to end.How I long for the sun to rise again.How I long to hear their voice,How I long for this pain to subside.How I long to no longer pretend.How I long to reunite with my friend.How I long…How I long… to no longer long for anything ever again… –…
What’s in a name?
Call me what you must, call me what you will .. call me anything you like… does it matter? does it change who I am? does it change what I feel? does it alter my existence? no… it doesn’t… it cannot… and yet it does… it does, when the person calling is the one who…
Little do they know.
Like a twister, her thoughts only cause havoc.She tries to keep them calm, but they have a mind of their own.She calls for help but they all tell her to be “patient”And the one who chose to be her savior, turns a blind eye. She screams, she cries, trying to hold it all together.Her soul…
Tell yourself.
Tell yourself you have forgotten how the bird sings. Tell yourself you have forgotten how the grass feels. Tell yourself you have forgotten how the flowers smell. Tell yourself you no longer remember how happiness feels. When all is forgotten and nothing is remembered, perhaps then you can start a new chapter. But when all…
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